Today i talk about Happiness! I have not posted a thing on this blog for two weeks. A part of me wanted to abandon this blog because i have not made a single solitary cent. And part of me had to take a step back especially because i dont feel like a bread winner in my family. And the depression sorta set in and i began to try to find other ways to make money. So i completely stopped blogging and i completely stopped vlogging.
What is important really?
I started a career as an insurance agent which has gone “okay”. I’m definitely not happy doing it. Especially because i’m under pressure to find my own clients and i desperately do not want to sell things to friends and family. I started doing studying long hours for my license exam and for the insurance agent class and other things started to slip such as my health. I was not the picture of health but i was doing alot better with my health. Before i was sticking to my diet, i was walking daily. And all of that has stopped which caused my health to go down hill.
Self Reflection is Important!
Today i’ve been doing some self reflection on what happiness really is. I believe i need to earn my bread. But i think i was doing okay working part time at the day care. It allowed me to support my wife and her career and it allowed me to do the things i need to do to stay alive, and it allowed me to serve God in my callings and write this blog. I think instead of giving up on blogging i am going to seek mentorship from other bloggers so i can learn how they ma
ke income doing this because i love blogging with all my heart. I am also going to go back to working the part time job i had and not worrying about being rich right now because me and my wife we made it on that income and it allowed me to be healthy because i am disabled.
What brings True Happiness?
Meeting with my doctors this week its evident i have stage 2-3 Kidney disease on top of diabetes, heart disease and other health concerns. I need to focus on staying alive for my family more than making millions. With a desire to focus on that foremost because i can make all the money in the world working long hours as an insurance agent and end up dead leaving my loved ones tragically early. I think the lesson you should take from this life experience my friends is find out what is the most important things in life. Learn to take a step back and see what really makes you happy. What really brings you joy. Take a step back and reflect on the grand scheme of your life and its eternal nature. I am grateful for my life, my wife, my family, my church and my calling. I know whats truly important to me and what will bring real happiness.
I titled my blog post determination because i have been defeatist in my blog lately. I have felt that my blog has made no impact lately. I also felt that i’ve been working hard for a year on this blog and have not made a single solitary dollar. Rejection from the church to be an ambassador to Roots Tech did a major blow to my blog ego. I felt i worked extraordinarily hard this past year to cut the mustard. To meet the standard. And when i was rejected it hurt me so much.
Sometimes rejection is good. It helped me see that i really dont want to focus on genealogy anymore. I love it, its a passion of mine but not to the level that i want to write about it. It also helped me realize that without the knowledge to monetize this site i’m not going to make any money. SO am i still going to write? I’m writing now aint i? I am not stopping my blog. I may go down to one blog post a week and make it a really good one so i can focus on my job and career selling life insurance and financial services. But one day this website will retire me from doing that to doing this, what i love!
Like the mountain climber in the above picture we could never reach our dreams if we give up. This blog preaches tenacity all day and i will never stop because i believe that’s important. With God anything is possible and i am grateful for what heavenly father provides for me in knowledge and inspiration. So i look forward to continuing to post blogs for you all and one day i look forward to doing just this! Take care and God bless!
On today’s Vlog Show i talk about God and how faith in God can have great mental health benefit. I’ve been going through alot this year and its been very hard to stand. But the more and more that i’m fighting to stand the more that i’m learning to just let go and let God. So as i conclude my series on self hatred i am happy to show you my greatest asset i’ve ever had in my life. So welcome to the Kenvincible show. Sit down and relax and enjoy the vlog!
Deeply Spiritual Experiences at the Fort Collins Temple
Friday Fun Day
This is written on Wednesday of this week just FYI. Today me and my wife and our friends Joseph and Janet had a chance to attend my first temple open house since joining the church 19 Years ago. I am an endowed member of the church. But getting the chance to see a brand new temple really humbled me. I’ve have been humbled by the sheer magnitude of my fathers plan for my life.
From The Start
We left around 6:45 AM with great friends and my wife. We went to a local eatery called Swifts on Santa Fe for a super cheap breakfast. After getting full we hit the highway for the 10:00 AM. Our driver is an awesome member of my ward named Brother Joseph who i think has one of the humblest spirits ever. I never knew he had health afflictions but behind the wheel i saw arthritis cripple his hands so bad that around 20 miles from our location we had to pull over. Then we put our lives in the hands of my beautiful wife! She has her drivers permit so it was all LEGAL, but i was worried because even though she’s been getting lessons i had not been there. I am PROUD of my wife. She drove like a “G” (thats Eubonics for Gangster) and got us to the temple. And she NEVER drove on the highway before!
So we began our tour of the temple grounds in the Stake Center across the street. From the time i sat down and the movie began that talked about God’s plan for man and for the human family the spirit washed over me. I began to receive revelation for myself. I began to think of the covenants i had made. I am ashamed to say its been six months since i’ve done an Endowment session. Not because of not having a recommend but for being lazy. And when you have that disconnect the weight that family is waiting for you to do the work for them i wanted to cry. I was then positively reaffirmed that in a weeks time my wife would enter the Lord’s house and receive her endowment and i should set an example by being with her and even without her. I was then brought back to memory of the Sealing Ordinance if i continue to strive to be worthy then i can begin to build an eternal family with my wife.
The Tour was so beautiful! I envy the northern saints in the Fort Collins Temple District. You truly have a beautiful edifice to worship the Most High in! I cannot wait till next Friday to watch my wife make Celestial Covenants and become worthy of that Kingdom. I cannot wait to kneel across that altar in November to make the highest of covenants in the House of the Living God. Temple Worship is a Must, and it is NECESSARY!
Today i am going to write about one of my hobbies in the hopes that i cam explain to family and friends who dont why i game. Whether its played Dungeons and Dragons with some friends on a Monday night. Or dressing up as a crazy Arabian vampire.
This is not the cheapest hobby in the world either. I love to go to conventions which usually cost airfare, hotel, food, transportation, costuming, etc. And some of my friends have said that i should stop this hobby and just focus on bettering my family. Is this hobby a detriment to my family?
I grind hard most days whether at work or at home on my business. And i deal with alot of health issues, etc. Everyone in this world needs a hobby! We all need something to do with spare time. If we work 24/7 we may be rich but will we have enjoyed life?
What Gaming Does for Me!
Gaming gives me an outlet for my imagination to run free. I’m not rich yet in real life (working on it) but i can play a millionaire. In real life i am sick and fight health issues. But in game i’m able to play the super strong assassin. Or play political games and try to get more power for myself or my family. These are all ways i get to express myself and do things that i’m not able to do in real life. I could be going through a bad day and log on to an online game session and get so immersed in my character that i forget the bad stuff thats happened for a while. Or how i feel for a while. It has given me a network of friends that i have a close bond with. People that love me and genuinely want to see me win in life. People who give me encouragement in all other areas of life. Gaming is NOT bad. I think some people give it a bad rap. But i really enjoy this positive creative outlet for my imagination!
Family and Friends Friday
As you can tell i’m using today to launch a new Friday blog theme. I think my time writing on Genealogy topics has come to an end. I realize i just dont have the passion for it i used to. And i think i stressed myself out way too much coming up with Genealogy Gangster shows for you guys. So i will still do the Whatever Wednesday and the Fun Friday posts, just only one show on youtube per week. I will start having recipes back on here next Friday!
For the first time in FOREVER i rocked a sweater. Well it seems like forever. I dont know what it is about autumn that makes me feel all cozy inside. Not sure if its the sweaters or the pumpkin flavored drinks, etc. I know for many its cuffing season. For my non urban friends i’ll break that down. Cuffing season is that time where you find a boo (girl friend or boyfriend or more) before winter comes so you have someone to cuddle with. I am eternally grateful for me there will be no more cuffing seasons because i’m handcuffed forever to my love.
I look forward to chilli, soup, and halloween! I look forward to cooler weather but no white stuff yet. I look forward to General Conference, as well as other fall things. I love the change of leaves that happens in the state of Colorado and the sights i can see. It also has significance as we prepare for the crowning ordinance of the Gospel entering the Holy Temple this fall. Now this fall will be filled with finding a wedding cake (for the low). Finding tuxedos (for the low), finding snack foods (reception gotta be cheap) as well as witnessing the Endowment of my wife and other events. I welcome the rain that is falling outside. I hate the tooth aches its causing me right now (the cold temps) but i think i look good in this sweater!
How The Analogy Fits in our Lives!
In life we go through different seasons. Some of those seasons are like summer. Those types of times when everything is going right. Or sometimes those seasons are like Winter when things are so cold. Each season serves a purpose in nature for instance without the moisture of winter this planet and all of us in it would die. Or without the heat of summer. Or the reprieves of Autumn or the growth of spring. No matter what season your in there is one thing certain, it will change. Life will change. Keep your head up and keep positive even when your in the winter of your life. Because when your in your summer you will need the lessons or the strength of winter.
I apologize it came to this site one day late. Yesterday was a doozy. I found out i suffer from kidney disease on top of my diabetes and congestive heart failure.
I could immediately go negative and hate life and the world. I can so woe is me. I could stay negative. But the Lord has given me a book in the bible to refer to and it began to set a seed into me. And this seed just sprouted and broke through the dry ground of my heart. And this word was so good i just had to share!
Walking Your Road!
So i hope your able to glean from this good message. And i hope it gives you the strength and courage to keep moving forward. This is just the chapter one of your story, we have a loving and merciful God and your story is eternal because of his sacrifice. Can you believe that? An Eternity! So here it is and you let me know what you think when your done with it!
Your story is not over yet! Even if everything that could go wrong in your life went wrong the peace and solace is in the fact that your still in chapter one. You need to go through the experience of life. You need to let the seed that you planted or that God planted in you grow. We need to know that life does not happen to us but for us! Because when you come through on the other side your story will be so glorious. And your story will encourage someone else like Job’s story did for me! God bless you and keep you! May he cause his face to shine upon you and give you peace!
As i finished my morning walk i opened my email to discover a letter from RootsTech 2017. I had placed an application to become an Ambassador but also a speaker at the convention in teaching a class on Genealogy and social media. The letter stated my class proposal would not be accepted this year. I began to be sad that my prospective and what i wanted to present were not good enough. And part of me felt like i was kicked in the stomach. Part of me felt like i did not want to even go to RootsTech or worse stop writing and vlogging about genealogy.
How this applies to Genealogy?
Have you ever hit a brick wall in your research? I know i have. And it is so tough to even want to get back on the computer and get back to searching or get to that library to scan microfilm etc. Just like i feel i am not doing that much in the niche of family history lately and wanted to give up many of you feel that way when you do your research and hit brick walls.
Determination is Key!
There are answers and sometimes because were a microwave society we want those answers right now. Sometimes those answers wont come for years but if you lose all hope and stop looking then the answer is that you will never find what your looking for. Determination is so key in doing family history! So sit back and watch this next episode of genealogy gangster as i relate some of my experiences and what determination has brought me.
This has been one of those weeks. One of those weeks when everything that could go wrong did go wrong. And when i came to myself things seemed to be out of control. I’m so grateful for everything that i have learned through Anthony Robbins. And i really did handle things well at first. But then when more started to happen i began to lose thoughts and things i learned.
I am however thankful that as i began to utilize resources that friends and others could be a dramatic help. Just because your learning things from Self Help teachers even like myself you have to tailor those things to your own personal situations. When i was in the middle of my storm and technically i’m not out of that storm yet i have been able to lean on Jesus Christ and my friends to help me out. I am learning alot via the bible right now and i want to do a series on getting out of the boat, the story of Peter on the water with Jesus.
Life Goes On
So even with all of the problems i am going through in life i’m still standing. And i continue to do my 15 minutes to thrive with Anthony Robbins each week. I need to catch up on the rest of my Anthony Robbins so i can move on to other self help learning. I’m also finishing up my book so maybe you can learn from me and my examples and avoid the pitfalls i’ve fallen into. But as i write this i want to touch on one last subject.
Avoid the Spread
So this week i have learned something crucial to life. Everyone is an influencer even if they do not realize it. When i was going crazy this week i did not realize how i was influencing others around me. So next week on the Kenvincible show i’m going to talk about the law of the spread. How we feel is contagious whether we understand that or not. And when we make the conscious decision to go negative we do so not just for us but those closest around us. Even though i had a bad week or weeks i had no clue that i was making them bad for everyone else around me. So be on the look out for Episode 5 of the Kenvincible Show! So below i’m going to help you be an influencer on social media with snap chat and its absolutely free without any obligations check it out!